I “love” doctors :s
If you can’t tell from the title I am being sarcastic… I don’t hate doctors but I do get anxiety every time I am going to see a new doctor for the first time. ¬†In the last 3 weeks I have been to 2 new doctors and am going to a 3rd one this afternoon…
Why all the new doctors you ask? Well I happen to have switched my Medical group in August and that means going to a new allergist.  I had to visit my Primary Care Doctor to get a referral to an allergist and also an opthamologist.  So the first appointment was establishing care and getting referrals, thankfully I really like my new dr so that was fairly painless.
The opthamologist on the other hand I was so nervous…I was literally shaking in the waiting room. Now that appointment was painless also…I was given a prescription for steroid eye drops. ¬†The dr said that it looked like all my eye problems were caused by allergies but my eyes were really inflamed and these drops would calm them down and hopefully fix the problem. ¬†I have to go back and see her in a month.
This afternoon is a new allergist and I am once again nervous. ¬†I had been going to the same allergist for almost 3 years so it is a big step. ¬†I am hoping that I don’t have to have another “back prick” allergy test, but if that is what he wants to do then I guess I will survive.
All these dr visits are teaching me to trust the Lord…I get so caught up in what I am going through that I forget to trust the Lord. I am gradually learning to look to Him no matter what is going on. ¬†Why do I struggle with this? ¬†Why is it so hard? I know that I believe in Him but why can’t I put my trust in Him to control the situation. ¬†He already knows what the outcome will be yet I still think that I can manipulate it to be what I want!
“Lord, help me to put my trust in you and to not fear. ¬†Help me to let you have control of every situation. ¬†Teach me let go of my fear and to humbly allow you to guide my life! I love you, Lord.”
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